�This quote is totally true. I went through a lot of ups and downs this past year. I had so much going for me and ironically, at the same time, so litle going for me. I had a dead end job with so little hours that I could barely afford to pay for my phone.
�I remembered getting sick a year ago (my illness took a big affect on me)�and having to leave my previous job that gave good hours and good pay. That was such a bummer on my part. I had crazy litle incidents that scared me from myself because of my illness. I thought things could not get worse and then I discovered that my grandpa is dieing. Things were very rough and my road was rocky. But, even though I was going through a hard time, I was doing everything in my power to help my situation. I took action a few ways. I applied everywhere I could find that was hiring. I went to job fairs. I even looked online. At times I almost lost hope because I wasn't getting interviews and I wasn't getting where I wanted to be. As time went on I started to get more and more hopeless.
�Lets rewind a little.. I started dating this boy, his name is Kevin, in April. Through my hardship he stood by me and gave me advice and told me to keeping pushing on and never give up. I took his advice and didn't give up. One day, actually a couple days ago, I got a call for an interview at a Theater. The guy that called me, the manager, was really nice on the phone. I was so excited and went to the interview. At the interview I was very confident and happy. I seemed to be of liking to this place because days later I was asked to come work for them. I was all smiles and jumping for joy. I got a job and realized that determination does pay off. My boyfriend helped me realize that I can do anything I put my mind into. He stood by me while I was going through some rough times.
�The job issue wasn't the only concern that I handled. I was also dealing with my illness. I have a Depression Disorder that is one level below being diagnosed as Bipolar. So I really don't see things as a normal person would. I deal with things differently and situations that may seem like no big deal are actually a huge deal to me. THis is a mental disorder that is hard to live with and I been on many different kinds of medication for it. I also tried no medication but my doctor reccommended me to go on meds because I didn't feel good and my condition got out of hand many times. Throughout all the concerns II delt with over the years, I had determination to make the best of the situations. Handling these situations were not easy but I didn't give up. My doctor found some medication that helps me function and I check in with him whenever something goes wrong. And I found a job that helps me pay for the things I need. Additionally I found out that my boyfriend will go to the end of the world for me just to make sure that I am not just alright but wonderful. I didn't give up on me and my boyfriend didn't give up on me. My boyfriend really loves me and I really love him too. :) I thank God that He helped me though my hard times, when I think I'm all alone and no one is there for me, God shows me otherwise. I am so Blessed. The sweet thing is.. my boyfriend has faith in me and knows I can do great things. He says I amaze him. Sometimes I amaze myself with all the things I discover I can do. It's great to know someone is on my side and supports me. Just know this: If I didn't care a whole lot, nothing would have gotten better. For the fact I cared about helping to beter my situation and taking action, things got better.
�Thank you to God for putting people like Kevin in my life. It is literally a miricle what you show me and teach me. I know you put me down this hard path to teach me a lesson and I have learned a lot of valuable lessons. I'm grateful for all I have and all the work you do in my life. I give you all the honor..ttyl soon <3 P.S. to top it off my totally sweet boyfriend surprised me with a rose this afternoon. I love his surprises, he is such an amazing guy. --{--@ Elizabeth
I received a letter from W. yesterday saying that he loves me and knows that he must let go of the one he loves so that she can fulfill her dreams of having children. This is a large part but not the only reason I left. My heart is breaking because I feel terrible for hurting him. I have never put myself first and I don't want to find myself going back just because I can't stand that someone is crying because of me. I know he deserves better also and he will realize that...right now I am just hurt because I can't make everyone happy and make myself happy as well.
I had to look I just had to my finances are a mess.....I have some kind of plan.....stop shopping!! hahaha seems simple but it's hard not to spend money and do things to actually have a social life drinking, concerts, eating out and museums it all freaking adds up and I need to get that under control. Now that I'm coming into a new job and I don't have that stress anymore� time to really buckle down and pay off this debt is just weighing me down......couldn' t sleep at all last night.
A rainy day! The sun did come out in the latter part of the afternoon, and with the high temperature today at 61, it actually felt good for that short time. The weather man is talking about another snow storm for Saturday. This could put a damper on weekend plans. Natalie has a birthday party to go to at 2:00, and either on Saturday or Sunday we were planning to go to either Phoenix or Tampa. Neither event might not take place if the snow amounts are high. Not much of an eventful day. I spent most of the day inside watching TV and being lazy. I watched the old flick, War Games. I wanted to record it for Natalie. She was asking me why Russians are always spys, and the bad guys in movies. I taught her about the cold war era when they were considered the enemy. And while we still don't trust each other, it's not as tense as it used to me. I told her about the movie, and told her I would record it for her to watch. But after seeing it first (as any good parent should do!), there are some scenes that are inappropriate. But I think I can fast forward to a point to get past it.
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